There were days when I used to cry and wish I would rip my heart apart and even just have my ending.There were days when the mask of my beautiful smile was all I had to offer and everyone around me bought it.Everyone knew that I was the happiest,liveliest and the one who lived out life the most.

No one knew what went on behind closed doors.For behind closed doors was when my sad and lonely took over,behind closed doors was when my entire lack of understanding of our livity always rang in my mind.Behind closed doors was when my heart always tore.Behind closed doors was when the alone feel sank deeper.Behind closed doors was when the understanding of “no one really cares” hit deeper.Behind closed doors was when I had to meet with the demons in my heart and all the committees always gathering up in my head.

My feeble heart never gave up though,In it all there was always that Strong Alpha me in there.That’s what always drove me to helping others in all ways I could,That’s what drove me to always lend a hand where I could,That’s what always drove me to ascertain no one felt alone as I did.That’s what always gave me the drive to make the world a better place.

I may not be there yet in ascertaining the world’s better and I may never completely get there on my own but what I promised myself and I’m now stil working on the promise is “as long as there is breath in me,I’ll keep trying and I’ll work each day towards making the world a better place.